Snuggle

I spent a couple days in bed last week. I was more sick than I had been in a LOOOONG time (read: elementary school). The first morning I was sick, I got up briefly in the morning and Soren wanted me to do Play-doh with him, but I felt so bad I explained to him that I needed to go back to bed. He told me he wanted to come with me, which I begrudgingly accepted. Soren doesn't rest when he comes in our bed. He climbs all over, plays, looks out the window; I wasn't feeling up to that.

But this time was different, he told me he wanted to get under the covers with me, so I lifted them up and invited him under. He talked about how cozy it was. And then came the best part: he said, "Snuggle." My heart leaped! I had longed to snuggle with my busy, wiggly boy. Despite my sickly-ness, I drew him close (being careful not to breathe on him). I rested my chin on his head and enjoyed as he reached up his toddler hand to caress my face, rub my arm and nestle closer under the covers. I made a point to fully enjoy those few moments.

Later (and because I'm writing this several days after the fact I don't remember what sparked the connection) it dawned on me that God longs to hear that same desire from me! God is a personal God who wants a relationship with His children. I know in my head that God is not just a wish-granter or a chess master moving pawns or a disinterested "Power". But sometimes it takes moments of flash insight to really understand in my heart and being that I am at times like a busy, wiggly toddler always going, trying to check off my To Do list, even spending time with God, but He and I need moments of quiet rest where I just snuggle in close to His heart. God created me to enjoy Him, to enjoy being with Him, just looking at Him, learning and remembering Who He is and how much He loves me, how He wants to spend time with me, too.

Because just as I loved those brief, precious, still moments snuggling with Soren, God loves to snuggle with me, too. Lucky me!